Genesis chapter 12

The thing that struck me here was Abram's faith, and how it is such an example to me. Firstly, he just upped and left everything when God called him. There was no hesitation, no worrying over whether he was doing the right thing, whether or not he was imagining God has spoken to him or not. He just packed everything up and went, taking his wife, servants and family plus all the livestock, everything. Then he also made altars everywhere, as a reminder of all that God had done for him and as an act of worship.

I want a faith like that, one where there is no room for doubt, for worry, for stress, where I instinctively know when God is speaking to me and trust him implicitly, even when I don't know what is going on. I want to have altars in my life to remind me to worship, and as a recognition for all God has done for me.

Yet what a difference when Abram got to Egypt, and told Sarai to lie and say she was his sister, not his wife. Ok, technically, she was his half sister, since they had the same father, but really, Abram was just trying to save his life since as Sarai's husband, his life would have been in danger because Sarai was so beautiful that Pharaoh could have killed Abram to get Sarai and Abram's riches. This shows the exact opposite of what happened when Abram packed up and went to Canaan. There, he just obeyed and trusted. But here, he relies on his own skills, his own scheming to keep out of trouble and just look at the mess that got him into. He was prepared to allow his own wife to be taken into Pharaoh's harem and to accept gifts for this as her brother. He doesn't even consider God, or ask him what he should be doing, he goes right ahead and tries to sort things out as best he can as he is fearful for his own life.

Interestingly, he also spares no thought for Sarai, he gives no consideration as to how she might be feeling when told to go and live with Pharoah, leave the marriage bed and go be with another man. Self first, last and always, that sounds like Abram, ignoring others and trying to save his own self even at the expense of others. But I suppose times were different then, women were not important,

Isn't that just like us? We have moments of great faith and then the next day, it can be completely the opposite picture as we try to do things on our own, without even bothering to ask God what to do, and end up getting in a right mess. I think thought that there is a difference between asking God for help and guidance and in not thinking for ourselves. God gave us minds, abilities, skills and we have our own judgment. It is not a case of asking God for guidance on everything (should I have another cup of coffee, is it ok to go take a shower now, can I go shopping tomorrow, or whatever) but of seeking guidance in the things that matter. And yes, finding a parking space may well matter so I'm not criticising for asking for help in things like that. Different things are important to different people at different times.

But it is a case of always being on the same wavelength as God, of trusting in Him no matter what our personal circumstances. Not always an easy thing to do, and you only have to look at Abram to see that. One day he trusts God completely, packs up his bags and moves his entire family miles away because God says so, and the next day, he schemes, plots and lies, completely ignoring God in the process.

Just like we do, I do. It's easy to trust God when things are going well, when we have that well paid job, when the children are doing well, when whatever we do turns out well. But what about when there's no money for the bills, when we lose the well paid job, when the children misbehave and get into trouble with the authorities or fail their exams, or when we or a loved one or close friend is diagnosed with a life threatening illness? It’s not so easy to trust God in the bad times, yet we are called to do this.

I think the example of David is a great encouragement here, because there he was anointed king of Israel by Samuel, and yet he was on the run for his life from Saul for years. And yes, there were days when he was down, despondent, but each and every time he turned to God. You only have to read the psalms he wrote to realise this. He was a man after God's own heart, even though he messed up, committed adultery and had someone killed. His heart was right with God, just as Abram's was, even before he became Abraham, the father of many nations. And I think that is an example I need to follow, to make sure my heart is right with God and to be always looking to Him, to trust Him no matter what is going on around me.